I was riding in the car with my mom, Lynn, and I had been thinking a lot about smart phones and how much time I spend playing games, reading the news, email, FACEBOOKing!!!! Ugh.
Anymore, I go to pull my phone out to look at the time, and the next thing I know I have eaten 15 minutes of my precious time watching cat videos. AND I STILL DON’T KNOW WHAT TIME IT IS!
I have floated this idea in my brain about potentially going back to the flip phone…WHAAAAA.
Part of the reason I spend so much time on my phone out in public is because I am introverted, and I struggle with chit chatty conversations, so I stare at my phone so people won’t talk to me.
But it got me thinking, maybe if I learn how to put my phone down and be more aware of my surroundings and the people around me, I would learn how to have conversations with strangers.
Driving down the road, I said F*** it, I’m going to try to do this for 30 days. The rules were simple, when I’m out in public, I can’t play on my phone unless it was business related (Funny how quickly you can justify that something is business related when you have to). I could check emails. I could talk to people on the phone, text with people. I just couldn’t go on Facebook or play games…for thirty days.
My expectations were that I would learn how to just be in public and maybe not be so awkward anymore. I certainly learned something alright, but it wasn’t what I thought it would be.
Here are the things I learned…not in a particular order
Yes, I got to the point where for my own sanity, I allowed myself to pick my phone up and start reading the news. Well, then the joke really got funny because I was in a building with no cell phone coverage!!!!!!! AAAAAHHHHHHH I proceeded to shove my face really quickly and abruptly left thinking how crazy I was for doing this challenge.
But it started this thought process of thinking about the important question, the WHY do I do this question.
I kept with the challenge, thinking I was just going to have to push through the rough patch and if I could learn how to control my thoughts through this, I would be famous teaching people how to do this.
At another restaurant, I had another difficult experience because it was a small-town restaurant and I walked in and all the guys kept staring at me. It was hard to swallow. Luckily, I knew someone there and she was asking me to look stuff up for her and I gladly accommodated while I waited on my food.
Today I ended my 30-day challenge early. I had fully answered the question WHY and said F*** it, I’m done with this nonsense.
In the end, my not so 30-day challenge was wildly successful. I learned WHY I feel the need to distract myself especially in public. I gained an immense amount of clarity about myself. Stuff that I kind of already knew, but I don’t think I understood how deep things went. I took myself to a new level of clarity.
I also learned how many times I make assumptions about the things I would learn about myself if I tried something different. Instead of experiencing the challenge, I jump to the conclusion and make the conclusion up in my head instead of experiencing life.
Sometimes all you need to know and understand is the why. So, why do you do some of the things you do? What assumptions are you making in your life, answering questions to challenges you couldn’t know the answer to?